hmnnnnn.

THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME...

CARE, LOVE, LET GO

Letting go is not always associated with love, passion and intimacy.  Letting go is a universal term used to depict any act of intellectual or emotional giving up of an aspiration usually for a good end or simply the acceptance of what is 

beyond ones control.

-------- Storm

  

It's human nature to care and to expect care in return.  What if you are placed in a position where what you give is not reciprocated with at least what you expect?   It is like making intellectual and emotional investments that you cannot withdraw some for yourself?  Or not even a good benefit to be expected at the end of the day? One can't force others to give back something or anything in return as this needs to be voluntary.  There is nothing wrong with caring however, if disappointments hits you hard quite a few times maybe you should rethink.  Care is supposed to feel good not bad.  Is it worth the investment?  Care in this case is an emotional decision not intellectual.  Your intellect will usually dictate you to act the investment however if you stop, it is only the act that stops ... not your emotional decision.

Both emotional and intellectual care will usually dictate you to be in between to decisions like being in between two huge rocks that is about to collide with each other.  For you to make a decision, you will usually consider pros and cons with both in mind.  Usually a hard decision to make but one needs to be made because of necessity and emotionally related value.  If there is a thing called "win win situation", this could be the opposite depending on how you react or think about it. 

And now love...
Billions of unsuccessful love stories are told and about to be told and they all have one thing in common ... one cannot be ones pair anymore because of many possible universal reasons.  Either one or both goes the other way.  Fighting for what both had is always a given scenario but its human nature to hold on... even if it scars ones dignity.

If it is not meant to be, then that is how it is.  One will tend to dwell on the lingering pain simply because one wants to feel good and secured knowing the fact he or she is tightly holding on to the  love that is not meant to be.  Eventually, if the pain constantly batters ones intellect, emotions and dignity, the intellect will usually takeover and this is where the so called hardest part to do happens... letting go.  Saying goodbye is easy... letting go is the hardest part but at the end of the day, it will usually be rewarding like being reborn.  Getting in touch with oneself.  That feeling of content that one is able to triumphantly battle with oneself.  But here is something that is worth a ponder ;

"Goodbye... I'm letting you go but I care"

----Storm

ONE DOWN ... WILL YOU BE THE NEXT ONE?

TASTE THE FEELING OF KNOWING THAT ONE WAS TAKEN OUT AND YOU COULD BE THE NEXT ... SCARY S..T EH?  AND THEN YOU REALIZE YOU HAVE NO ONE TO RUN TO ... DANG!

ITS THE WAY OF THE WORLD ... TOO BAD YOU JOINED!

BLUR

MY HEART REMEMBERS YOU LIKE THIS NOW... I SINCERELY THANK YOU FOR DOING WHAT YOU DID.  YOU SUBCONSCIOUSLY SAND PAPERED ME AND I TURNED OUT WELL.  THIS I OWE TO YOU.

EMOTIONAL TIDES

"Often misunderstood but not one appreciates the courage one undertakes to truthfully express and show the montage of colors created within the depths of uncertainties." - Storm 

Walking through my long time desired superficial garden everyday is far better than smelling the flowers in a rose garden.  I designed it   not according to how a stereotypical garden is laid out in a canvass or a blueprint.  It’s not perfect but every inch of it is made with so much passion that I know the smallest detail that is beyond recognition through an unsuspecting eye.  From a distance it’s chromatic but really is made up of millions of colors that are not necessarily a favorite of anyone.  Colors will change in spontaneity hiding the imperfection of wilted branches and exposed roots.  But still, it is my garden and I like how it feels every time I walk through it despite the imperfections…  That is how I am.

I refuse to make my garden the way others do because I see things differently…  I know how I want it simply because I know that it will make me happy… No other reasons.

But the reality of life will dictate you to do otherwise.  It will speak its expectations like a loud thunder that will bring in undesired heavy rain and wind that will eventually break and destroy your garden… and there is nothing you can do about it… you cannot shelter your ideals with ideals.  At the end of the day, it’s just another ideal. 

CLOSE YOUR EYES....

A HAPPY FAREWELL

Enlightening ... :)

Thank you ....

THE END

LAGI KONG SINASABI SA KAHIT KANINONG NAGIGING KAIBIGAN KO NA MAS MABUTI PA YUNG MAGALIT AKO SA IYO KASI BUKAS WALA NA YON.  MAG SASALITA AKO NGAYON PERO BUKAS WALA NA YON. PERO PAG AKO MAG UMPISANG MANAHAMIK, IBIG SABIHIN, UNTI UNTI KO NANG MARARATING AND DULO NG NAPAKAHABANG TALI NA BINABAYBAY KO.  

BUMBAY :  KUMUSTA NA?
INTSIK :  ETO MASARAP ANG PAKIRAMDAM
BUMBAY :  ANONG MERON?
INTSIK :  MALAPIT NA AKO SA DULO.  MASARAP SA 
          PAKIRAMDAM KASI MATATAPOS NA.
BUMBAY :  ANG ANO ANG MATATAPOS NA?  HINDI 
          KITA MAINTINDIHAN.
INTSIK :  ALAM MO NAMAN UGALI KO.MATAGAL NA 
          TAYONG MAGKAKILALA AT MAGKAIBIGAN.
BUMBAY :  AH ALAM KO NA.  BUTI NAMAN AT OKAY 
          KA NA.
INTSIK :  OO NAMAN.  GAYA DIN NAMAN SAYO YAN 
          NOON DI BA?  SA TAGAL NG PANAHON NA 
          HINDI TAYO NAGKITA, NAALALA PA RIN 
          KITA DAHIL NAGING MABUTI KANG TAO SA
          AKIN.
BUMBAY :  OO NAMAN! IKAW LANG NAMAN TONG DI
          BILIB SA AKIN MINSAN EH. PERO ALAM 
          MO, LAKING PASASALAMAT KO SAYO DAHIL
          SA NAGING SAMAHAN NATIN DI MO AKO 
          NAKALIMUTAN.  NGAYON, MAY TRABAHO 
          AKO AT KAHIT PAPANO, NASUSUPORTAHAN
          KO PAMILYA KO.
INTSIK :  AKALAIN MO, NAGKA KILALA LANG TAYO 
          DAHIL SA CUSTOMER MO AKO SA BAR 
          NINYO AT NILASING MO AKO NG NILASING
          HAYUP KA. AHAHAHAHA.  PERO ALAM MO,
          ISA ANG NA APPRECIATE KO SA IYO.   
          SALAMAT AT NAGING AT TOTOONG TAO KA 
          KA SA AKIN.
BUMBAY :  ABAAAA. DRAMA AH!
INTSIK :  HINDI DRAMA YAN. KILALA MO AKO.  
          WHEN I SAY IT I MEAN IT.
BUMBAY :  OO NAMAN. NIRERESPETO KO YAN KASI 
          GANYAN ANG PERSONALITY MO.  PERO
          ANONG MERON?
INTSIK :  WALA LANG. AHAHHAHA
BUMBAY :  ITATAGAY BA NATIN YAN?
INTSIK :  ANO AKO DEPRESSED? HAHAHAHHA
BUMBAY :  YAAN MO NA YAN. MAY MGA TAO TALAGANG
          GANUN.
INTSIK :  KAYA NGA BIBITAW NA AKO.  HAHAYAAN 
          KO NA.  AND IT FEELS GOOD.  BINIGAY
          KO ISANG KAMAY, HINDI KO NA IBIBIGAY
          YUNG ISA.  AT LEAST IKAW NANDYAN KA.
          CONSISTENT KA NA NAGUNGUMUSTA.  
          MARAMING SALAMAT KAIBIGAN.  
BUMBAY :  AYOS LANG YUN. KILALA DIN KASI KITA.
INTSIK :  ALAM MO NAMAN ANG MGA NANGYARI
          NITONG NAKARAAN. BUTI ANDYAN KA.
BUMBAY :  HEHE. PAINOM KA NA.
INTSIK :  HAHAHHA UNGAS.
BUMBAY :  BASTA KUNG AKO SAYO, HALATA NAMAN 
          NATIN NA AYAW NYA SA MGA KAMAY MO 
          KAYA WAG MO NANG IPAGPILITAN. YOU 
          DID YOUR BEST IKA NGA.  HINDI SYA 
          NARARAPAT NA MAGING KAIBIGAN MO NG 
          MAHABANG PANAHON. DI BA AYAW NYA NA
          IKAW ANG MAUUNA MAG TEXT? TAPOS 
          KELANGAN SYA ANG MAUUNA MAG TEXT 
          SAYO?  TAPOS SA FACEBOOK, PAG 
          NAKIKITA NYA NA NAG OONLINE KA NAG
          OOFFLINE SYA?  IBIG SABIHIN NON, 
          HINDI NYA KAILANGAN ANG FRIENDSHIP 
          MO.
INTSIK :  TAMA.
BUMBAY :  SABI NGA NI MA'AM MADRE MAGTAYO KA 
          NA LANG DAW NG NGO. HAHAHAHAHA.  
          PARA SILA ANG LALAPIT.
INTSIK :  SIRA DIN KAMO YUNG TALIPANDAS NA YON
          AHAAHAHHAH.  PERO GUSTO KO SYA KASI
          CONSISTENT SYA.  I WILL THINK OF   
          MA'AM MADRE FOR A LONG TIME GAYA 
          SAYO.
BUMBAY :  MAS MARAMI MAAAYOS AT TOTOONG TAO NA
          NAKAPALIGID SAYO. DUN KA MAGFOCUS.
INTSIK :  ANO BA!  NASA DULO NA NGA AKO EH.  
          MAPAPATID NA. HEHEHE.  AND IT FEELS
          GOOD KASI MAGAAN SA KALOOBAN. 
          NAISIP KO, NATULUNGAN KO NAMAN NA SA 
          STEP ONE AND TWO.  SIGURO NAMAN 
          HINDI NA AKO MASAMA NON.
BUMBAY :  OO NAMAN. BASTA, WAG MONG GAWIN 
          BASAHAN NG PAA ANG SARILI MO. AAPAK 
          LANG YANG MGA YAN SAYO KUNG MADUMI 
          PAA NILA. TAPOS PAG GAMIT KA NA, 
          ITATAPON KA NA.
INTSIK :  SMART ASS! HAHAHAAHAHA.
BUMBAY :  OO NGA! TOTOO YON. TINGNAN MO NGAYON
          MALINIS PA KASI PAA EH KAYA DI KA 
          NAIISIP. DI BA MINSAN INIIWASAN 
          APAKAN ANG BASAHAN PAG MALINIS ANG 
          PAA?
INTSIK :  SMART ASS ULIT. AHAHAHAHAHAH
          NAREALIZE KO NA YAN.  KAYA NGA DI KO 
          NA IBIBIGAY ISANG KAMAY.  THIS IS 
          ME NAMAN OR PARA SA IBA.
BUMBAY :  ANDYAN KA NANAMAN.  MA'AM MADRE OH.
          MAGTAYO NA TAYO NGO. AHAHAHHAHHAA.
          WAG MO NA RIN ISIPIN KALAGAYAN
          DUN NON.  IKAW NGA LANG DI KA
          MADAMAYAN EH. YAAN MO NA. DI MO 
          NAMAN MGA KAANO ANO YON.
INTSIK :  YEAH.NAISIP KO DIN YAN.  ALAM MO 
          NAMAN AKO ISUSUBO NA LANG IBIBIGAY
          PA SA IBA.
BUMBAY :  NAHAHALATA KO MASYADO NA YANG
          NAGPAPAIMPORTANTE.  IBALING MO SA 
          TOTOONG TAO ANG EFFORTS MO NA YAN.
INTSIK :  IKAW HA MASASAPAK NA KITA. SINABI
          NANG NASA DULO NA AKO EH. AHAHAHAH
BUMBAY :  AY OO NGA PALA. HEHEHE.  AT LEAST 
          IBA TAYO KAHIT WALANG WALA, AYOS
          LANG. WALANG NAGBABAGO.
INTSIK :  TAMA KA.  SABI NGA DIN NI MA'AM 
          MADRE HAYAAN KO NA DAW. HINDI 
          DESERVING. KAHIT MAN LANG SANA DAW 
          PULITIKA.
BUMBAY :  KAYA NGA. ALAM MO, KAHIT MAMATAY KA 
          SA DAAN, NI HA NI HO HINDI 
          MAGSISIMPATYA YAN.  NAKOOO ALAM KO
          ANG KULAY NG MGA HASANG NG GANYANG
          KLASENG TAO.  HALATA KO NAMAN PAG 
          MAGKAKASAMA TAYO.
INTSIK :  PERO ALAM MO, ALL MY LIFE I HAVE
          ALWAYS BEEN LIVING BY THE WORDS OF 
          ANNE FRANK;

“It's really a wonder that I haven't dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out. Yet I keep them, because in spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart.” 

― Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl

          YON.
BUMBAY :  SABAGAY PRINSIPYO MO YAN.  PERO 
          SIEMPRE LOVE YOURSELF FIRST BEFORE 
          OTHERS.
INTSIK :  YEAH.  PERO ALAM MO THANKFUL AKO SA
          MGA NANGYARI KASI ANG DAMI KO 
          NAREALIZE.
BUMBAY :  NA ANO YON?
INTSIK :  BASTA. YAAN MO NA. NOW I FEEL GOOD
          KAYA FOCUSED AKO.  YON.  CASUAL NA
          LANG.  KUNG MAGKALIMUTAN NA SA 
          PAGDATING NG PANAHON, LET IT BE.  
          GANUN TALAGA.  THEN BE THANKFUL NA 
          LANG TO THOSE WHO STAYS GAYA MO.
BUMBAY :  BASTA BA HINDI MO AKO SASABIHAN NA 
          NASA DULO KA NA EH.  KAHIT NA, 
          GUGULUHIN KITA SA BAHAY NYO. 
          SA AYAW AT SA GUSTO MO. HAHHAHA
INTSIK :  GUARD! PALABASIN ANG HAMPAS LUPANG
          TO! AHAHAHAHA.  OY CGE NA PUMASOK KA 
          NA. MA LATE KA NA.  BASTA HANDA 
          KA LANG. MALAPIT NA.
BUMBAY :  SANA NAMAN.  EH YUNG ....
INTSIK :  YAAN MO NA. NASA TAO NA YON. GO GO
          GO!
BUMBAY :  OK SIGE. INGAT.
INTSIK :  SALAMAT. TEXT KA PAG NASA STORE KA
          KA NA.

------------------ 30 ---------------------

Don't Burn Bridges ... Destroy it Using Your Bare Hands

"Sir, someone approached me today.  He told me that she heard us discussing about the weakness of our employees in the shop.  According to him, he heard us talking about adding more competent employees for us to be able to sell our butters and jams"

"When was this?"

"One time we were sitting on a bench and we were discussing about it.  This guy was sitting nearby".

"Oh yeah.  I remember that day".

"Yes Sir.  I told him to submit his resume so you can review it".

"I admire the determination.  But the problem is, we still have a lot of employees".

"Just for reference".

"Okay then, I will give him the chance to be interviewed.  Kindly contact him and arrange the schedule".

"Okay Sir".

"Good afternoon Sir".

"Good afternoon!  How are you?".

"I'm good Sir thank you".

"I was told that you overheard us discussing about us needing employees?"

"Yes Sir.  I waited for your companion one day and said that I heard the conversation.  I gave a copy of my pertinent document.  I was determined".

"Why?"

" I want to have experience to be able to go abroad.  I have my own family already".

"What are your areas of competencies?".

"I'm good at selling bananas".

"Okay thank you very much for your time".

"He has a very good dream.  Hmnnnn.  I have all the staff I need right now".

"For pooling?"

"What struck me is his determination and the fact that he wants to go abroad for his family ergo he needs this experience".

"It's up to you Sir".

"Okay then, lets give him the opportunity.  Let's just align budget and justify it with the need of expertise in selling bananas".

"You're hired".

"Hi guys, where are you? I'm here at the corner store eating buko pies.  Where are you?   Please come.".

*"Riiiing!  Riiiiiing! Riiiiiing! I am not coming - you are of no use to me anymore.  We discussed not to look at you anymore.... we don't need you anymore (according to your drinking buddy who used to be my drinking buddy)".

(*Repeat 7 times)

"Tooooot!  Toooooot!  Hi Sir! are you the President of the Republic already?  Is my position there available already?"

...................................................

"Tooooooot!  Toooooot!  How are you sir?"

"I'm good.  You?"

"Sir maybe you can help me.  I'm good at selling lambanog".

"Riiiiing!  Riiiiiing!"

"Dagami!  This guy keeps on miscalling.  I told him I will let him know if there as a slot available for lambanog seller".

"Sir right now he has a big problem.  His cat is pregnant and he needs to be able to provide catfood for his cat and soon to be kittens"

"I though he was selling lambanog elswhere?"

"Not anymore sir.  He overcharged his master for the raw materials and got caught".

"Really?"

"Yes Sir.  Everyone in the previous circle knows about it already".

"Although I told him I might be able to help him one day but i do not expect him to bother me".

"He needs it badly because his cat is pregnant.  He is desperate".

"I see. "

"You're hired!"

"Hi Sir.  Thank you.  I really need this.  My cat is pregnant and I need to be able to prove to it's previous owners that I am worthy to be my cat's master.  They despise me".

"Okay, do your best.  I need those lambanogs sold.  Then after that you can look for other places where you can sell whiskey already.  This is your stepping stone.  In the meantime you can stay in my house so you can save and be able to buy more cat food and save money for the vets".

"Thank you Sir"

"I'm leaving to go somewhere"

"Hi guys, where are you? I'm here at the corner store eating buko pies.  Where are you?   Please come.".


*"Riiiing!  Riiiiiing! Riiiiiing! I am not coming - you are of no use to me anymore.  We discussed not to look at you anymore.... we don't need you anymore (according to your drinking buddy who used to be my drinking buddy)".

(*Repeat 7 times)


......................................

"Hi Sweeeer.  There is something I want to tell you but I'm worried scared".

"What is it? If it is out of goodness, there is nothing to worry".

"My close friends here do not like you".

"Why?"

"Because you see their wrong doings and you reprimand them".

"Do you think that whatever they are doing is bad?"

"Yes Sweeer because it's unprofessional".  

"Can you tell me who they are?"

"Yes Sweeer .... Lucy and her boyfriend,  Peggy Lee,  Vice,  and two Bananacue makers"

"I see.  I will handle that.  But for now,  I'd like you to reach your potential.  I have observed you being good at arranging Bananas and entertaining buyers.  Would you like to try?  Don't Mind them.  You can do better.  Focus on your development".

"Yes sweeer but I might not be able to cope up".

"Oh yes you can.  Trust me."

"You're promoted!  Next Stop .... you will eventually become a Management Trainee even in other companies.  Just do your best".

"Thank you sweeer".

"I will walk with you all the way".

"Sweeeer I hate you.  I'm sexually inlove with someone I thought you were trying to take away".

... (I thought ... I am only offering opportunities to others including you.  Funny how this turned out). Lame.

(Did that someone knew you were taking advantage by grabbing the groin while asleep and while everyone was looking?  Ask the musical artist, the goddess and their company.  You may also ask the gigolo and the lambanog seller.  Shame on you. Pity on your poor someone.  Even the neighbors at the shop already knows about it.  They already look at that someone in the most disgusted way.  Trust me,  they asked me.  Poor thing.  He is laughed at until now).

"Oh, thank me because i gave you the opportunity of free accommodation so you can save ... and the advantage to see and be with someone".  

"Now, hang on really tight to the knife and lick ass.  You need to do that to be successful.   You are good at it.   I hope  Lucy and her boyfriend,  Peggy Lee,  Vice,  and two Bananacue makers doesn't find out what you did to them ".

..............................................

"Oh so cold to do the laundry".

"Sir there is a good shop who can do that".

"Okay".

"Sir can you help my daughter?"

"Why? If I can I don't see why not".

"She needs a job.  she is really good".

"Okay because you are a nice person, I expect to see you in her.  Give me her papers".

"I'd like to interview this.  Kindly contact and ask to report.  Interview for formality only".

"I'm competitive Sir and I'm very professional".

"Report!"

"Whats wrong?"

"Nothing"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes Sir."

"Let me know if you have a problem".

"Maybe I'm just tired".

"Okay.  Rest then".

"I'm going".

"I don't care"

...silence... no how are you's or even hi's.  oh well

............................

till next issue... with photos

............................

"What made you want to work with us?"

"Sir it was my dream po to work in hotels"

"But we are only a concessionaire"

"Okay na po sir kasi nasa bananas and lambanogs facility din naman"

"Okay and then?"

"Tapos sir, di ko po alam kung bakit di ako matanggap sa work"

"Why is that?"

"Baka sa height din"

"I see.  If given the chance, what can you contribute to our organization?"

"Hardwork and performance sir.  I'm a fast learner. I just need this chance to prove it"

"Please report tomorrow.  You are hired"

"I have noticed these weaknesses Arwana.  You need to improve yourself in these areas"

(No improvement)

"How are you with documentation?"

(Silence)

"I need you to take care of our documentary transactions.  It's critical as you will need to secure payables documentation from clients.  In the meantime, We'll have someone else handle your previous function.  I need someone who can stay until late at night to handle clients until closing  since you cant stay as you are worried of your safety when going home.  Besides I'm not comfortable that your boyfriend is always waiting for you at the shop".

... ignores the very person who gave her the opportunity to work


AWOL

(tsk tsk tsk... the face)

CHOCO HUMBA (Sigh)

I just realized that it has been awhile since I last made my favorite dish.  I thought it will be relaxing to make one after all these years.

The members:

      2 kilos belly
      Make sure its thickly sliced

               



        1/4th slice of panucha        












                 or you can substitute the panucha with
                 200g to 250g reaaally brown sugar.    

                   


                            2 Cups light soy sauce

           


        1 Tsp. freshly ground black pepper

             


                    6 pcs. lemon.  Don't use vinegar as this will
                    cause the sauce to be watery

                A pack of dried banana blossom

 

                  1 - 2 liters of soup stock or water

 






                         1/2 Liter of fresh pineapple juice
                         (or canned unsweetened)

... and of course, the native unsweetened

Chocolate medallions!

 The choreography:

1.  Boil pork belly cutlets in water until soft.  Season it like nilaga but with very little salt.  Throw in banana blossoms, black pepper and roasted peanuts (optional).  Continue boiling uncovered so that soup evaporates.
2.  When the soup reaches a sticky sauce like consistency, pour in pineapple juice and boil some more - uncovered
3.  When the pineapple juice reaches a sticky sauce like consistency, pour in soy sauce and mix in panucha or brown sugar as substitute.... squeeze in juice of lemon.
4.  Throw in one medallion of chocolate medallion (thin).  continue boiling until sauce thickens.  Season.  follow your taste.
5.  Serve with kaning lamig.  Easy di ba?

Everyday: TRY THESE TOGETHER ON A LAZY AFTERNOON. :)

Everyday: TRY THESE TOGETHER ON A LAZY AFTERNOON. :): TRY THESE TOGETHER ON A LAZY AFTERNOON. :)

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Insensitivity becomes an excuse because of ego. It is a fact that some things are not meant to be.  We have no choice but to suffer uncertainties and the pain of knowing that some people will just play along.  its the way of the world... no one can control that.  But things would have been better if one is sensitive enough to at least recognize how one feels.  But then again its the way of the world.  one is basically is on his own... its the way of the world... no will care about how you feel... not even the most important person to you.  your best way out? just get out.  love is only a belief... its nothing. It's superficial.  My heart right now feels that no one deserves a beat - no one.